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Things I Never Said

by Oceanator

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    All songs written by Elise Okusami

    Recorded by Eva Lawitts and Chris Krasnow at Wonderpark Studios and by Mike Okusami at his studio in Maryland
    Mixed by Mike Okusami
    Mastered by Dave Eck

    Elise Okusami - guitar, bass, drums, synths, vocals
    Eva Lawitts - bass
    Andrew Whitehurst - drums
    Mike Okusami - drums, bass, synths
    Aaron Silberstein - drums

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    All songs written by Elise Okusami

    Recorded by Eva Lawitts and Chris Krasnow at Wonderpark Studios and by Mike Okusami at his studio in Maryland
    Mixed by Mike Okusami
    Mastered by Dave Eck

    Elise Okusami - guitar, bass, drums, synths, vocals
    Eva Lawitts - bass
    Andrew Whitehurst - drums
    Mike Okusami - drums, bass, synths
    Aaron Silberstein - drums

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1.
you’ve been reading too much into the things i never said digging around between the lines and twisting it up in your head goodbye, goodnight you’ve been gone away a while now i didn’t think it would take so long but i thought i heard you on the radio last night singing our favorite song goodbye, goodnight
2.
There’s a crack in the world and we’re all hanging on, hanging on trying not to fall through the void but sometimes there’s only so much you can do and it’s hard to have big dreams but it’s hard to let those dreams die out, too remembering when you were a kid and you thought by now you’d figure out, figure out most everything but it’s all as confusing as ever and every day adds something new and some of those things are bad enough bad enough they almost crush you it’s not what you wanted but it’ll do it’s not what you wanted but it’s gonna have to do who knows if we’ll be here tomorrow but everything, everything, everything still matters you know and you can say you didn’t but we’ve been over this again and again you never hear anything you don’t want to and you don’t wanna hear about the end it’s not what you wanted but it’ll do it’s not what you wanted but it’s what you get and who knows things could get better yet taking pleasure in simple things in between hot tea on a cold fall day and dressing up for halloween and i’m still trying my best you know it keeps getting harder and harder every day when you see the news on the tv, on the radio but i’ll keep trying to keep the skies blue anyway
3.
Hide Away 06:11
i saw the fire the day that i met you crackling felt the flames up close and licking my face and it was too hot, too hot to bear and it ate up, ate up all of the air we felt the ground shifting slowly underneath the land pulling apart beneath our feet so we wait for wait for the rain and we try to invent games to keep ourselves sane now we settle on the edge of the world we just left behind and now we settle down and watch from afar as our world comes to an end and we hide away and waste away all of our afternoons and hide away and wonder how many afternoons we have left i lost the fire a year after i lost you it fizzled out it got too hard to keep stoked and healthy i feel too old too stiff to move there seems no point no light without you now we settle on the edge of the world we just left behind and now we settle down and watch from afar as our world comes to an end and we hide away and waste away all of our afternoons and hide away and wonder how many afternoons we have left you were slipping away and there was nothing i could do about it and you were getting worse every day and all i could do was watch and wait you would try to smile through it all but sometimes you couldn’t manage that and i was no help at all and i’m sorry that in the end there was nothing i could do and i’m sorry you had to watch your world crumble down around you and i’m trying to forget the last time that i saw your face but i think that it’s the one memory of you i can’t seem to replace now i settle on the edge of the world we just left behind and now i settle down and watch from afar as the world comes to an end and i hide away and waste away all of my afternoons and hide away and wonder how many afternoons i have left and i watch and wait as i see everything falling down all around me and waste away as the water dries up and the fires roll in and i don’t mind or wouldn’t if you were still here beside me we’d hide away
4.
there’s a lot you don’t wanna think about and sometimes you can keep it away for days but you see something and you’re reminded you see someone and you’re reminded it’s all you can think about it’s the only thing you think about but it’s not something you wanna talk about so you just keep talking to yourself the words spinning around in your head over and over and over and over and i think i think too much thoughts spilling out of my head and learning how to swim finding homes in other parts of my body i can feel them bubbling just under my skin running through my veins just a little too fast a little too thick to flow right clogging up the tunnels and turning to sludge then my toes start to tingle and my hands feel like they might fall off there’s a gaping hole in my chest and i can feel the wind blowing straight through me i think i think too much thoughts spilling out of my head and learning how to swim finding homes in other parts of my body thoughts growing legs crawling under my skin like bugs swimming through my veins swimming upstream to spawn and make me worry even more i think i think i think i think….
5.
Heartbeat 03:52
i’ve been waiting a while for you to find me for someone to feel like home i’ve been waiting a long time for the world to feel steady for the sound of your heartbeat and i’ll know this time that we’ll be fine ‘cause i can’t help but feel all right when you’re by my side i’ve been waiting a while for you to come back so i could see your smile and i’ve been wondering a long time how it would feel to let your heartbeat slowly lull me to sleep i’ve been waiting for a long time dreaming a long time wishing a long time longing to hear your voice calling my name and i’ll know this time that we’ll be fine ‘cause i can’t help but feel all right when you’re by my side
6.
and if the sun never came up tomorrow how long do you think it would take us to notice would we wake up in the afternoon with the curtains closed (we’ve been staying out too late) and just assume it had come and gone without us (we’ve been sleeping through the day)) if the world fell apart tomorrow i would find you i would come for you ‘cause all i ever wanted for you was to have everything you wanted to to do anything you wanted to and if the sun never came up tomorrow do you think we would even notice ‘cause we’ve been keeping to the shadows and hiding in the dark (we’ve been staying out too late) we rarely see daylight anyway (we’ve been sleeping through the day)) if the world fell apart tomorrow i would find you i would come for you ‘cause all i ever wanted for you was to have everything you wanted to to do anything you wanted to and when the sun comes up tomorrow i’m gonna get up to see it just to make sure it’s all still here (i still stayed up way too late) the world hasn’t disappeared (but i’m determined to be awake) if the world fell apart tomorrow i would find you i would come for you ‘cause all i ever wanted for you was to have everything you wanted to to do anything you wanted to so if the world went to hell tomorrow i would follow you i would stay with you and if anyone tried to hurt you i would keep you safe i’d keep them away to the end of the world together i will stick with you i’ll never leave you and if you can’t go any further i would carry you if you need me to
7.
when you were depressed and you put your head on my chest and you told me that you were tired of being tough i took you by the hand and told you i understand and you told me that could never be enough but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter but in the end will it matter when i was depressed and i put my head on your chest and i told you i could never be enough you took me by the hand and told me you understand and i told you that my best wasn’t enough but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter but in the end will it matter but i will walk with you down the avenue though the streets are made of glass and we will tread lightly on our heavy feet and avoid all of the cracks it’s a fragile place that we’ve ended in and one wrong move could shatter and if you’d asked me then i’d have told you that none of it would matter but i will walk, i will walk, i will walk
8.
when i’m alone and i’m waiting by the phone i’m wondering what you ever did ‘cause i never thought i’d be this kid who just sits snow’s falling down and it’s sticking to the ground i can see it out my bedroom window and i’m wondering if i’ll ever know your secrets the face of a clown keeps spinning round and round in the blackness of my empty room and he tells me we’ll see each other soon not to fear he laughs then he cries but i’m not afraid to die so i look into his teary eyes and we see through each other’s disguise it’s all clear the sky’s falling down and it shatters on the ground the rain turns into splintered ice and the clouds that used to look so nice dissipate the houses start to fall like it’s the end of it all they crumble like they’re no more than dust is there anything left we can trust we’re too late when i’m at home and i’m sitting by the door i’m waiting with my hand on the phone so you’ll save me from being all alone in this hell but if i say i’m okay will you ever go away i’m living my life day to day not the lead in my own play can you tell
9.
Sunshine 04:20
i’m going outside today i’m feeling like things might be okay i’m getting out of bed today i’m feeling like things might go my way right now i’m okay by myself i don’t need anyone else sometimes it gets me down but i usually come around i’m okay on my own i’m living on sunshine i’m feeling just fine i spent the day outside read a book then lay back and let the sun warm my eyes right now i’m okay by myself i don’t need anyone else sometimes it gets me down but i usually come around i’m okay on my own

credits

released August 28, 2020

All songs written by Elise Okusami

Recorded by Eva Lawitts and Chris Krasnow at Wonderpark Studios and by Mike Okusami at his studio in Maryland
Mixed by Mike Okusami
Mastered by Dave Eck

See tracks for specific performance credits
Elise Okusami - guitar, bass, drums, synths, vocals
Eva Lawitts - bass
Andrew Whitehurst - drums
Mike Okusami - drums, bass, synths
Aaron Silberstein - drums

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